Groupie Love??

Did you know that if you take a picture with your phone. . . of you. . . and a famous (Male) person then this song (above) will play in your man's head?

I'm just going to say that this situation is hypothetical. . .{^_^} and that it happened to no one that I know. . . (0_0). . . not even me {O_o}. So. . . what had happened (or not happened) was. . .

There was this random girl that will remain nameless for the security of her relationship that decided to go out one night. She was looking FINE, I might add, which is far from the point BUT a true statement, nonetheless. She was hanging out with some friends and co-workers when someone told her that there was a famous rapper in the building. Not knowing much about him, she turned to look and after taking note of the rapper she thought, "I should share this with my boyfriend."

Her first way of sharing this news was to send a text that said "Hey, guess who's here?" The artist moved throughout the club as people took pictures with him but she didn't really know if she wanted to do all that. She really just wanted her boyfriend to know that she saw the guy, so she waited. . . and waited for a while. When her boyfriend didn't respond, she thought if she took a picture then she would have proof and could send it to him in a text. So, she did. Once she did that, she thought, "What the heck, I might as well twit-pic this pic too."

No harm, no foul? WRONG.

So to this beautiful, wonderfully harmless girl's dismay, her loving, kind-hearted, and handsome boyfriend told her, "Don't send me a picture of you and another guy ever again." This was followed by a reference to this song. Confused, the girl chalked it up to jealousy and went on about her day. Unfortunately, she received a call later, divulging how not only did her boyfriend have an issue with this. . . but a friend saw the twit pic and questioned him about it. This led to a discussion at work, where all the men agreed that she was trife.

UMMM. . . WHAT!?

When did a picture with a famous person become groupie love?? I thought groupie love was groupie love.

Help me people. Help me understand.

Matrimonial Phobia

"Marriage is an adventure, like going to war." - Anonymous

My name is Falling In Love With Me and I am. . . a "Matrimonia-Phobic" or Gamophobic, take your pick. If you are wondering, 'Hey, did she just make that first word up?,' then you no longer have to wonder because, I did.

The actual term, Gamophobic means fear of marriage or commitment to relationships which I don't wholeheartedly believe I am. I just think that I'm more on the former 'fear of matrimony' side. It's funny that I'm finding this fear to grow stronger and stronger each day I see a new relationship change on my Facebook news feed to "engaged" or "Married."

Ironically, I am so happy for other people and I wish them long and successful marriages with lots and lots of babies that I would love to babysit and take pictures of. . . but me!? Let's just saying I'm having a hard time seeing me. . . there. . . right now. Panic arises at the thought of it, along with questions like 'Lord, am I running out of time?,' 'Am I even the "Marriage Type"?,' 'Will I be in that rare percent that lives to see a 50th anniversary?,' 'Will I make a good mom, or a good wife for that matter?'. . . and the list goes on.

To say the least, the idea of marriage is really starting to freak me out.

To give a little credit to myself, relationships use to freak me out, as well, but I got over that and am now in a AWESOME, committed relationship, but the marriage part. . . not so much. I think what scared me with relationships was failure and I'm assuming that if I dig deep enough that is the same concept here. I hope that people that are not afraid, don't read this and suddenly become this way because I know its a little wacky, I'm just seeking social guidance. (HELP!) I mean seriously, what are the chances of ANYTHING good happening in life. . .really?

I'm just saying, life is hard alone. . . but, with someone else? That's gotta be tough right? Or maybe it is one of the biggest reliefs and/or gifts God has to offer. . . to not be alone. I'm just feeling like the sudden sinking feeling in my chest now, is not the most suitable conditions for marriage . . . now.

Pray for me. :)