Today I was feeling a little down while driving to work. I don't know how many people this applies to but, sometimes I get so frustrated with myself for not doing what I should have, could have, or would have done. I wish I could do everything the right way the first time but it rarely works out that way. I would chop it up to being a perfectionist, but I don't really think that's the case. I think it's more like, some things I just don't do.
At other times there are things that I just can't do. Sometimes I find myself saying 'Yes' to everything. "Yes, I will sit on the phone with you while I'm writing this paper!" "Yes, I will take on that large assignment by that impossible date." I don't know, but sometimes it feels good to complete the impossible. Yet, not so good when you realize you can't do, what you couldn't do, in the first place.
This is something that creeps into my personal life as well. I want to do all these things that will be better for me but for what ever reason some things just don't work out. This morning I was thinking about something I wanted to do, but didn't and I just started to go off. I mean like I went IN on myself. I was just like "WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GET RIGHT!? YOU KNOW WHY!? BECAUSE YOU SUCK!"
As I began to get all emotional, I thought about how you never know what people are going through in their everyday lives. The person that greets you with a smile everyday, could have so much going on under that smile and you wouldn't even know it. I thought about myself and what I go through and how I rarely tell people the whole story. I would prefer to hold it all in and deal with it on my own, but how many others are feeling the same way.
Even worse, What if you didn't have someone to call when you were at your worst? What if you were going through and couldn't call on anyone to be an ear to hear or shoulder to cry on?
All that to say: It doesn't matter what you have done, didn't do, or should have done. Tomorrow is not promised, but if you are blessed enough to receive another tomorrow, give thanks and try to do everything to your best ability. Everyday is a day for new beginnings and it's okay to fall, as long as you get back up.
I know it seems preachy but it's something that I need to hear at my lowest moments and felt it would only be appropriate to assume that some one reading may feel the same. It always comforting to have the person that stays positive, no matter what it is. So, if no one is there to say it, let me be the first to say: It's Okay. You're not alone. Keep pushing towards perfect and you may just end up great ;)
Have a great day!
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