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Goodbye Heartbreak,

Our relationship has been that of love and hate, but in the end I know I loved you the hardest. In all honestly, I had to love you the hardest because in order to love someone like you. . . there was no middle ground. You were only high or low, operating in extreme feelings, I had to pick love to give us a chance, accompanied with friendship to stabilize our foundation. Yet in your essence, there is an extreme duality. There is something endearing about a heart, sharing feelings of joy, peace, and love, yet in breaking there is an end to these things. Here is where I find myself.

I'm falling out of love with the idea that I deserve anything less than the world or that it is impossible for someone who cares about me to tell me the truth. I'm falling out of love with heartbreak. I'm falling out of love with the idea that even when I did let you go, you pulled me back in with "forevers" and "always" that in essence, meant nothing to you. So now, they mean nothing to me. I want to say that it hurts but it doesn't really. I just know that now is the time to say goodbye. To pine over something that was never really there seems foolish and I think the time we spent together was enough time spent on foolishness in itself.

At the end of the day, I'm at peace. I know you all too well, so not much comes at a surprise. I know that you will bend the story to seem better in the end. I know you will act as if this was my plan all along, but if that were true, I guess you wouldn't have made it so easy to say goodbye. If my plan was to give up on you, I feel it wouldn't have taken me this long but in reading your letters, I realize you had a plan. In your plan, I was the pawn and you made it out okay. I guess this is where I say Goodbye Dearest and closest friend.

Heartbreak is not my story, it's not my end, it's not even in the fine print. I wish you well.

Sincerely,

Falling in Love with Me.

Hello Love <3

Love,

I'm writing this to you coming from a dark place, aiming to find the light where you are. You don't know how much of a gift you have been in this place that I'm in. As much as I've been through and feel I don't deserve a lot of the pain. . . I know I don't deserve the joy that you bring, but I'm thankful. I see God shining in you, whispering that there is a test before the blessing, there is pain before joy, and there is a lack of hope before faith reveals itself to be true. I can't believe I'm falling for you.

Knowing me, you would know that I would speculate that its something in the water but its not. Its just perfect, in my eyes, and as much as I strive to no longer believe in fairy tales, you rode up on a white horse, spread your wings, and carried me away on a magic carpet. I'm falling for you. I'm trusting God with you, praying that he helps me to be all that I can to you, if that is what is in his plan. I'm trusting God that he won't let me feel this strongly and be hurt like I had been before. I'm trusting God that falling for you is going to be apart of our personal legend and hoping that we can change our maybe's into forever.

I'm falling for you. . . so let me fall.

With all my heart,

Falling In Love With Me.