Harsh? Ehh, I mean . . .how you gonna plan your whole wedding
day and think that your future husband will have no opinion or say in the whole
thing? How do you even have time to focus on a wedding day and you still don’t have
a man? I always thought that my wedding would be something that I would worry
about when the day came. Actually, I never thought of it, which makes that last
statement a lie. Of course, this was a
very strong and acceptable opinion held by my old self.
My new, happily engaged, but stressed out from wedding
planning self, thinks a little differently about the girls who are yet and
still single, but have no questions about their day. There was a point in life
when I talked about those girls. . . and now. . . sadly enough, I envy them. To
add insult to injury, I encourage every single woman that I meet to plan ahead,
despite how crazy they may think it is. I image it would be a lot less
stressful for them, than what’s going on with me right now.
Now, not only do I understand why a little early planning is
not crazy, I also understand the science behind becoming bridezilla.
I never in my life thought that I would be the type of bride
that was short, angry, and hard to please but slowly yet surely I’m beginning
to see the horns growing. Despite the fact that I have no idea what I want in
all of this, I only have roughly 3 months to plan. Some may argue that that’s
my choice BUT I would like to argue that I am just trying to do what feels “right”
to me.
My fiance, then boyfriend at the time, and I prayed coming
into 2012 and one of the things that were clear as day to us was that God was
going to allow us to be exposed to everything that he had in store for us in
the future. So far, we have made business plans, music, graphics, worked in
ministry, like-minded communities, mentored, did a little speaking, and have
heard rave revues for confirmation that we were in the right place.
All of these things that we’ve been exposed to, were new to
us yet seem to perfectly fit into our God-given purpose. When he proposed to me
on July 27, 2012, we had every intention of getting married in April of 2013.
That, of course, was until I started to get this anxious feeling about getting
married in 2013, versus starting our covenant in the same year God blessed to
be the beginning of many great things for us. When 2013 wouldn’t sit right with
me, I talked to him about trying to make it work in 2012 and he was all for it.
EVERYONE OF COURSE (which is a part of my stress) keeps
asking us “Why so soon?” To which we respond, 2012 was a really good year for
us and we just wanted to keep it in 2012.
So anywho. . .
Here we are, planning to get married on November 24, 2012
and I am not the nicest person in the world. I think one of the biggest
misconceptions that I had about getting married was that this whole thing was
about me. WRONG. It’s not about me. It’s about family and friends who want to
see you get married. This means that you get a second, third, and forth opinion
about everything from where you can get married to who is on the guest list.
My question was, “Who’s putting in? Oh. . . not you. Hmm. .
.”
I just feel like, IF in some alternate universe I could do
whatever I wanted to do and no one would get offended, I would have a small
wedding. My wedding would be in some small town with a few people that I adored,
with a small reception before running off to some island and spending
one-on-one time with the love of my life.
This plan doesn’t work for individuals, like me, with
extremely large families and way too many friends. I’m not complaining. I’m
totally blessed. My only issue is that if this truly was about me, I wouldn’t
have to think about 300 other people that may possibly feel some type of way
about my ideal wedding.
In general, this is potentially the beginning of me turning
into a monster. Pray for me yall.
Plan ahead.
(Try to Think Happy Thoughts)
Congrats girl no stress just peace and blessings :)
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