The God in You

"I see the God in you. That's how I fell in love with God. I saw him in the people that saw me for who I was and loved me in spite of" - The Lost Child

I was sitting at church during the worship service as the Pastor explained the importance of communion. The argument, as to why communion should be important, was as simple as I can make it. . . for the same reason Americans see value in celebrating Thanksgiving: A connection centered around the celebration of food.

As I listened to him talk about what we could think about to make communion resonate stronger with us, I thought of my reason as to why communion is so special to me. Communion is special to me because I know the man who died for me. I know the man who broke his body, and shared his blood for me to be connected with him. When Jesus did this, he asked for the disciples to do this in remembrance of him. . .because they knew him. They knew Jesus.

One of the options given was to think about what Jesus did on the cross and how that impacts us today. Another to think of the special connections shared with this ceremony. What brought me to tears was that I felt like I knew the heart of the man that did it. What he did was great, but who he was and why he did it, to me, was what made it the greatest story ever told.

During the moment, that I realized that I knew who he was, I looked over to my right. This is where my boyfriend was sitting beside me. I began to think about the countless conversations we've had about Love and God and I cried. In all of my years of serving and worshiping God, during the midst of our conversations I had to come to grips with the fact that I may have never Loved God. I may have never understood the heart of God, nor may I have ever know what love truly meant. Yet, because of my time with him, I began to see God for who he was and couldn't help but to fall in love with him.

But it was through him, and the other people that God placed in my life, that I came to this point.

I didn't realize that when I first began to spend time with him, I was seeing God. I was drawn by his comfort and warm spirit, but at the heart of it, he saw right through me. He made me feel funny, beautiful, safe, and most importantly loved. I began to cancel plans with other people just to steal an hour with him. I began thinking about him throughout the day. I began talking to other people about him, and if anything in the past 7 months my affections have only grown. And as handsome, intelligent, funny, and strong willed as he may be, what he's shown me in the past 7 months was God.

Through his love, he has shown me that God loves. My best friend has shown me God through NEVER leaving my side. My sisters and brothers have shown me love through their support. Jesus says that how we treat the least of us, is how we treat him, on the other hand we bring Jesus to the world through our actions.

This is what made it easy to connect to God because now I understand that God is patient, God is kind. God does not envy, He does not boast, He is not proud. He does not dishonor others, He is not self-seeking, He is not easily angered, He keeps no record of wrongs. God does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. He always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. God never fails.

Now I am charged with sharing that love with you. By letting you know that everyday you are beautiful, everyday you are smart, and everyday you are royalty because God said so. I don't have to tell you everything you did wrong, nor do I have to tell you how terrible you are because none of that matters in Love.

So, thank you to everyone who walks in love, who've shown me love, and who has shown me the heart of God. For this, I am forever grateful.